Ashamed

I often get scared i will disappoint you.

I sit with that fear. I sit with a broken heart.

It hurts me, i want to run away. I feel my body tighten. I remember the pain i have caused.

I accept that pain will come sometimes, and to be mindful when it is here.

I treat my pain with great care so i can love you. But i get lost easily.

To find my way back to you i sit. i breath. i write to you.