Alone

I love to play in the ocean, but that too can be dangerous.

I watch my emotions wash over me, sometimes I get great joy playing in the waves.

Often I’m scared, that the waves will be too much for me and I will be swept away.

I sink like a rock. I watch the waves, I am mindful of their power over me.

I realize I am very small. I feel a pain in my heart.

I sit with that pain.

I do not wish for it to leave me. I let it take it’s time.

It teaches me. It leads me back to you.

It lets me love you. It reminds me I am nothing.

How I love to play in the waves, how sad I am when they hurt me.

I realize my desire. I am humbled.

My desire keeps me from you.

I get up and walk to the beach.